Tuesday, February 16, 2010

An Anniversary

2 years ago today, I drove home from Rainrock, after being gone for 3 very long, very hard months. I was thinking about writing about "it", but I guess the reality is I don't really know what to say about it, other than it makes me feel:

Sad for the time I lost with my (then) 2 year old.
Thankful for the healing journey it put me on.
Regretful for the pain my absence inflicted on loved ones - especially Shawn.
Nostalgic for the people and love I experienced there.
Sick deep down in the pit of my stomach when I think that it really did happen because sometimes it doesn't feel real to me.

I've been thinking about writing something about all of "that stuff", but for now, I'll just re-post this video I made after I got home - TWO YEARS AGO.
(Hopefully it will play - blogger has not been nice to my videos lately...)

video

9 comments:

Greg and Andrea said...

It's been so good to see you grow and heal since that experience 2 years ago. We're so glad that you are here and not there, and that you're continuing to move forward on your journey. God's done some amazing things, and we've witnessed it. Love you, Mars!
Andrea

Polly said...

Wow. I can't believe it's been that long. In a good way though. We never need to go back. We have those memories through the pictures, but that's all we need. We are in a new time in our lives. I love you Mars. I love all the girls.

Jen Hayley said...

Thank you for fighting Mars. You give me added hope for another friend.

Dana said...

Mars....Loved the video! I am so proud of how far you have come. You are so such a stronger person after the time spent at RR. Dont ever regret the time you spent to heal your mind. It was the most unselfish act you could have made. Love you and miss you!

Eric 'n Leah said...

I love this anniversary! Congrats Mars (and Shawn!)!! We love you both so much and am blessed to get to be part of seeing the ongoing work God is doing in you!
Love, L

Rachel Clear said...

Ah man, Marlene. I was on another blog that made me cry, so I thought, "I'm going to go to Marlene's blog and have a little laugh... see what Charlie's up to", but then I cried here too.

I am so moved by your story, what I know of it, and by your bravery to share it. What a goosebumping, tearjerking, heartwarming journey you've been on.

Stephanie L. said...

Wow...2 years! Congrats, Mars. I feel so privileged to be witness to your amazing recovery, and growth. Your strength amazes me, and I know Charlie and Shawn (and even my girls!) reap the benefits of this. God has blessed you in the last 2 years. While you never want to go back, it's awesome to see just how far you've come in 2 years. I love you, dear friend. Steph

The Miller Family said...

I love you sister. I am so very proud of you and blessed that you are "here" with us now. Mars I know that every single day during those three months brought, pain, growth, and healing. But, the best thing it brought was my Marsybarsy back that I love so dearly and whom I can't imagine life without. So thank you for kicking your eating disorder's butt everyday! I know it was and is harder then most of us can imagine. You are an encouraging, gentle, loving, committed, strong and beautiful woman. Love you more then you know!

Wilson Family said...

We love you Mars! What a great anniversary to celebrate! Congrats!! =)